“Tell me something about yourself”. This seems such a simple question and yet I have struggled with it on my resume, during interviews, and even while starting a blog. I can’t just say – “I am the same consciousness that created this world”, can I? If I do so, I would be more likely to get the phone number of a shrink than getting an appointment letter for a job 😛 .
What I’m really expected to do is to frame my answer using one/ more of such sentences like –
- I am a man/ I am a woman
- I am a Doctor/ I am an engineer
- I am sentimental/ I am practical
and so on and so forth….
The fact is – we have been conditioned to think about ourselves in terms of characteristics that can be seen, understood, felt, or easily defined/described… and there is nothing really wrong about that! After all, inner self is not something that anyone has seen or something which can be defined; rather it’s something which you have to experience, …like the taste of sugar.
You may have never tasted anything sweet (which is rather improbable) but even when you have, you can’t really describe sweetness… can you? Still, it doesn’t mean sweetness doesn’t exist. When you do experience sweetness you can easily associate its presence/absence within certain objects. The same goes with the ‘inner self’, except that it resides within each one of us. Yet very few have experienced it, and therefore, very few are able to associate themselves or others with it (because experiencing the inner self or soul requires a kind of consciousness which is different from the wakeful, sleeping, or dreaming states).
Unfortunately, I’m not one of those lucky ones who have experienced their ‘inner selves’. I am just an ordinary person who has discovered the fascinating world of meditation and the wonderful experiences that come along with it. When I started meditation I was lucky enough to have the support of a few spiritually inclined friends who helped clear my way by removing doubts and fears and also by providing me answers to questions which were critical to my journey. Over time, I lost both from my life – those friends as well as the element of spirituality.
They say that you appreciate light only when you have been in dark. At this point, I am trying to put myself back on the path which gave me true happiness. I had been advised to keep a journal of my spiritual experiences and I did keep one but destroyed it during an unfortunate episode of family melodrama, over my spiritual pursuits. Anyways, I will be trying to compile my spiritual and other life experiences, among other things, in this blog (not necessarily in the same order as they occurred). In doing so, I hope to revive my own momentum, as well as, motivate anyone who is on a similar path (provided I can do so).