It’s about Dreams Again

I have already mentioned about a similar dream in one of my earlier posts but I thought that it was just a ‘once in a blue moon’ kind of thing but now such dreams have become a routine rather than a rarity.

For the last 10-15 days or so, even if I sleep for 4-5 hours, when I wake up from sleep, I remember spending at least 2 days and nights in a dream (or dreams) within those few hours of sleep. Sometimes I even spend like 4 consecutive days & nights in a single night’s dream/dreams.

Another fact that stands out is that in almost all these dreams I see my childhood or teenage years. I even see those friends and acquaintances who I thought I had already forgotten. If someone were to mention their names a few days back I would have asked “who?” but in my dreams I not only remembered their names and faces but also their specific traits/habits.

Sometimes I even see dreams where I wake from a dream and tell others about the dream that I saw last night (while still being in a dream) and then go about spending another few more days & nights in the same dream (or other dreams in the same night – not sure about that). It’s like my subconscious is trying to find or remind me of something from my earlier years … but, in at least one of those dreams, I seemed to know that it’s just a dream (lucid dreaming).

Whatever it is, I have ignored it for long but now I really have to dig into the reasons…cos it’s kinda bothering me now!

Just a Quick Update

I was reading a book – “Autobiography of a Natha Siddha Yogi” by Vibhakar Lele when I came across an interesting bit of information regarding Kundalini activation and Manipura Chakra. The following piece of information (screen-shot from the aforementioned book) offers another perspective on my own spiritual experiences as mentioned in “Kundalini experiences part 4” and “Kundalini, Chakras, and Spiritual Evolution”.

Manipura and Kundalini Awakening


Being an Atheist

Recently, I was invited to attend a religious ceremony in my extended family but, as usual, I politely declined. That’s when the other person said that he was afraid I’m becoming an atheist. To be honest, I was a little amused at his assumption but I can understand… I’ve given him enough reasons to think like that…

You see, I’m not very fond of marking my attendance at social religious ceremonies or ringing bells in far-off temples at mountain-tops. Furthermore, unwillingly doing such things just to portray a religious self in the society seems a little pretentious to me.

The truth is – I don’t claim to be a religious person and I don’t think I’m a very spiritual person either. I get angry easily… my thoughts are often impure and my actions are nothing to talk about proudly. I also do not remember God very frequently…however, when I do, my feelings are rather genuine and heartfelt (at least that’s what I’d like to believe)…. And I believe it’s the feelings that make all the difference! A statue may be stone for one person but God for another…

I believe that – one can offer grains in a Havan (scared fire-altar) during a religious ceremony OR one can eat his daily food with a feeling that it is being offered to God who has taken the form of digestive fire/power in the stomach…. One can wait for hours in a crowed line to get the Charanamrit (sacred water) in a temple OR one can drink ordinary water at his home with a feeling that the same God who has become thirst has also become water to quench the thirst! An even better thing would be to feel that the same God who has become hunger, thirst, fruit and water has also become the one who is enjoying that food and water. This way the divisive feeling of ‘I’ disappears and only God remains. Feeling/thinking in such a manner converts acts as simple as eating and drinking into worship of God…

However, society or the so called ‘believers’ might perceive my thoughts, about worshipping, as ramblings of some misguided soul. To convince such people I would like to quote a verse in Saundarya Lahari, a highly respected text in the Sri Vidya tradition, where Adi Guru Shankaracharya worships Goddess Lalita Tripursundari in the following manner-

Saundarya Lahari Verse 27

Source – Saundarya Lahari – by Swami Vishnu Tirtha (1949)

Or – (English Translation)

Soundarya Lahari verse 27

Source – Saundarya lahari – by S. S. Shastri and T. R. S. Ayyangar (1948)

Reading this verse only strengthened my belief that my thoughts about worshiping God are not unfounded.

Finally, I would like to say that – just as going to a temple doesn’t make someone a believer, the same way – NOT going to a temple doesn’t make someone a non-believer either! Therefore, just because I avoid rituals and formal worship doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m  an atheist; it just means that I follow a different approach towards worshiping God! For me God doesn’t live in heaven, sky, or in temples. For me God is here and now.

However, how much of my beliefs I actually put into my day-to-day actions is yet another matter… and no excuses for that!

Oh, but wait! I’m a Libran…

Lazy Librans… sound familiar?

Reminder about doing Mantra Japa…


This post is inspired by the chapter– ‘The Cycle of the Mind’, from the book – ‘Happy for No Good Reason’ – by Swami Shankarananda.

p.s. – Even though I’m still reading the book, I can safely say that ‘Happy for No Good Reason’ (Swami Shankarananda, 2004), is a must read for anyone who is interested in meditation, self-help, or better living!

Saundarya Lahari, Samayachara, and Manipura Chakra

I’ve just now found some interesting pieces of information that seem to offer an intriguing perspective on my spiritual/Kundalini experiences. However, at the moment, I’m just going to write a very short post about them, with intent of keeping an eye on that subject for further revelations….

So…. as I mentioned in my previous posts, I have been reading and trying to understand Saundarya Lahari and there are certain verses in that book that are contradictory to the widespread knowledge about the sequence of chakras. For example the verse 9 of Saundarya Lahari where the sequence/elements of Swadhisthana chakra and the Manipura Chakra seems to be reverse of what is generally known and practiced.

Research on that contradiction (sequence of chakras) lead me to a masterpiece commentary on Saundarya Lahari written by Swami Vishnu Tirtha Ji Maharaj (a self-realized guru and also a well-known authority on Kundalini & Shaktipat), which further led me to do some more (casual) reading on Samayachara (a path of Tantra, which seems to be given more preference in the Saundarya Lahari).

Following are a few screenshots from a book (on Samayachara ) where I found some useful information/insights about some of my previous Kundalini experiences –





Right now I don’t know what’s true and what’s not …..but one thing is certain! – The topic of saundarya lahari, Samayachara (and its avoidance of the lowest two chakras) seems to go well in accordance with my own experiences of Kundalini and its awakening – as mentioned in my previous posts – Kundalini experiences part 3, Kundalini experience part 4, as well as Kundalini experiences – the initiation.


We are prisoners of our own mind


The following excerpt is taken from – “Siva Sutras – The Yoga of Supreme Identity” by Jaideva Singh.

“Reality is an eternal presence within ourselves. It is siddha, an ever-present fact, not sadhya, not something to be brought into being by our efforts. It cannot be caught by our vikalpa-jala, by the net of our thought constructs, however cleverly we may cast it. The more we try to catch it, the more we try to grasp it, the more does it recede from us. We are prisoners of our own mind. Thought has to commit suicide in order to know our real Self, the Siva within ourselves. Vikalpa, the dichotomizing activity of our mind has to cease, the wheel of imagination has to stop. The ghost of our discursive intellect has to be laid to rest, before we are allowed to realize our essential Self. Vikalpa ‘like a dome of colored class stains the white radiance of eternity’. When vikalpa ceases, the transcendental Self within us shines of itself. It is an experience in which the distinction of seer, seen and sight is completely annulled.”

“When the mind neither accepts nor rejects any idea, its activity ceases and one abides in one’s essential reality.”